Latest update: April 23rd, 2013
Special Note: When I wrote my most recent book, I weighed and considered what the most appropriate title should be, and although I examined many options, the title that kept repeating in my mind was “Life Is A Test.” The reason for this was two-fold – first and foremost, because that is the metaphor through which our Torah itself describes life: “V’Elokim nissa et Avraham . . .” – “And Hashemtested Avraham . . .”, and secondly, because ours is a generation which is being severely tested. Indeed, the passage from our Torah, “Ain bayis sh’ain shom mase . . .” – “There was no home that was not afflicted . . .” is only too applicable to us today.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
I wrote this poem yesterday after a few long and trying days at the hospital with _________. I hope you know what a tremendous impact you have had on our lives.
I Learned What I Did Not Know:
I learned that I could change a trach and work a vent.
I learned that I could feed him through a tube in his stomach.
I learned that I could suction him so he didn’t feel as though he was drowning.
I learned that I could empty his catheter.
I learned that I could give him a shot of insulin.
I learned that it’s hard to watch his physical body wither away while his soul soars.
I learned that it’s a blessing to change a soiled sheet.
I learned that I could stay up all might holding his hand while reciting Tehillim in his ear.
I learned that G‑d has His reasons and they may never be known to us but that I have complete faith in Him.
I learned to reach out and accept the abundant kindness from my Hineni family.
I learned that chesed is letting him cry and crying with him.
I learned that we could have a dialogue without speaking.
I learned the true meaning of giving anonymously.
I learned that you can smell death or savor life.
I learned that Hashem loves us so much that He has given us this special gift.
I learned that I could delay saying Shemoneh Esrei today because sharing his pain and giving him hope was more important at that moment.
I learned that there is joy even in suffering if you trust G‑d.
I learned that everything in my life is a gift from Hashem.
I learned that I am learning and growing and that is what I didn’t know.
For everything I’ve learned I’m so grateful to you Rebbetzin – my Torah Ima.
I love you so much.
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