Suzanne called me today about the newest humiliation she had just experienced. At the gym, a personal trainer loudly reprimanded her for trying to help another person with some equipment, and he did so in front of nearly everybody who was working out there.
Suzanne doesn’t ever want to see that trainer again or ever face the people who were in the gym today while she was being berated. I tried as best as I could to give Suzanne the warm support that she needed. Later on, though, when she was insisting that she could never return to the gym, I shared an insight that popped up. It seemed like there was a clearer message than usual in this latest episode of frequently recurring humiliations, since it was a “personal trainer” who had been hurtful to her this time.
Not going back to the gym wouldn’t put an end to these kinds of pain-evoking experiences in Suzanne’s life, although it would be a good idea to avoid a person with that kind of explosive temper, and report his behavior to his superiors. The reason why these types of intimidating patterns keep repeating, though, should not be avoided.
When certain painful patterns of behavior keep repeating in our lives, it is a major clue that there is an important communication we need to receive. The personal trainers we encounter may differ radically in appearance, yet they’re all delivering the very same message we desperately need to get.
Who are these “personal trainers?” It is not just somebody spitefully out to “get” us. And he or she is not being sent directly our way by an external vindictive kind of God, trying to ultimately make our lives miserable. In fact, we, ourselves, are often, unwittingly, these personal trainers too, helping others to get the very uncomfortable messages they may not feel like getting, but are, nevertheless, vital to their greatest fulfillment.
Personal training sessions are continuously going on because our souls are yearning – non-stop – for the deepest pleasure possible. What is that pleasure? It is to blossom to our full potential.
About half of all people, for example, probably need to become gentler, more compassionate and more giving. Then there’s the other half who nearly always need to become stronger, tougher and more assertive. And each of us keeps getting painful communications – in strikingly similar patterns – throughout our lives, so that we can become more balanced in these essential qualities.
Recently I got hurt because somebody disregarded a business agreement we had made. Why did I trust the person so implicitly beforehand? Hadn’t I been in a seemingly different, but actually similar situation not so long before? Why was I again disregarding the red flags, not taking precautions, and naively hoping for the best outcome?
As hard as it is for so many to stand up for themselves, be assertive, and resist being trampled upon, there are those who find it almost just as impossible to refrain from forging ahead to gain an ever increasing power over others. It is probably as hard for the more ruthless types to take the time to pause and listen respectfully to others – and then respond with genuine warmth – as it is for the non-assertive types to demand to be heard.
In Kohelet (Ecclesiates 3:1-8) Shlomo HaMelech explains what he has come to understand:
For everything there is a season, A right time for every intention under heaven, A time to be born and a time to die, A time to plant and a time to uproot, A time to kill and a time to heal, A time to tear down and a time to build, A time to weep and a time to laugh, A time to mourn and a time to dance, A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones, A time to embrace and a time to refrain, A time to search and a time to give up, A time to keep and a time to discard, A time to tear and a time to sew, A time to keep silent and a time to speak, A time to love and a time to hate, A time for war and a time for peace.
There are times that we need to learn how to be more trusting and times when we need to be less trusting. Situations when we need to demonstrate more patience with people, and circumstances when we have been way too patient. Life seems to be so much about learning how to become more balanced and developing the flexibility to respond fluidly at the appropriate time. We are all here to help each other become our most actualized selves, even though the growing pains can really be excruciating at times.
Three angels came to visit Avraham Avinu. The angel on the right, Michoel, had the pure energy of chesed – kindness, selflessness and compassion. On the left, was the angel Gavriel, with the gevurah – energy of strength, discipline and protection. Raphael, in the middle, brought healing. We all need to heal and it will come by finding the balance between chesed and gevurah – strength and compassion. Tiferes, harmony, results from the blending of the energy of chesed and gevurah in the unique amount that each individual needs.
There’s a note that has been stuck on the side of my fridge through many seasons. It says, Here is a test to find out if your mission in life is completed: If you’re alive, it isn’t.
Too many of us have this notion that there is a monstrous guy up in the sky cackling away as he watches us meet each new struggle in our lives. We may especially think that He’s smirking about the trials that seem uncannily similar to the ones we just suffered through last week. Blaming what happens to us on this narrow vindictive version of God, though, doesn’t help us inch any closer to becoming our full selves.
Recognizing that our souls are naturally and cosmically striving can help us embrace the struggles involved in our refinement. The egos covering our souls can become expert at resisting the repeated communications coming our way to help us grow. It isn’t at all comfortable to make the changes we need to become more balanced beings, and this resistance continues throughout our entire lifetimes. Again and again, as the learning opportunities keep presenting themselves, with remarkably identical themes and strikingly repetitive patterns, we can just keep responding the same old way that we always have.
There’s no escaping our purpose though. We’ll find ourselves right back here after this life, in a different form, but the same soul – and the exact same unique mission that still needs to be completed!
Yup, Suzanne, some “personal trainer” out there is bound to find us, and try to enlighten us (sometimes painfully) with the most vital insights for our perfectly individualized improvement program. Not showing up at the “gym” tomorrow won’t help. Our souls are not going to give up their intrinsic yearning for ultimate balance and actualization any time soon. ‘Cause it’s the most awesome pleasure possible.
Bracha Goetz is the author of 16 children’s books, including Remarkable Park, The Invisible Book and Let’s Stay Safe!. She lives in Baltimore, Maryland, and can be contacted for questions, comments or presentations at email@example.com.Bracha Goetz
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